Yamato no Kami Yasusada (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
okitactless) wrote2018-06-16 06:58 pm
okitactless) wrote2018-06-16 06:58 pm
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week 1, post-trial - dazai
[SO ABOUT BULL-FUCKING
...No, okay, they'll need a bit of time before they can get back to such lighthearted(???) topics. As far as Yasusada is aware, they'd both voted for Akechi, after all--and the fact that their vote had "lost" has stirred up uncomfortable feelings that, as a sword, he hasn't the slightest idea how to begin processing.
He doesn't mean to seek out Dazai, exactly, but he doesn't look surprised to come across him--just tired, mostly.]
Dazai-kun. [A small nod, in greeting.
...Then, because there's no point in beating around the bush:] ...what now?
...No, okay, they'll need a bit of time before they can get back to such lighthearted(???) topics. As far as Yasusada is aware, they'd both voted for Akechi, after all--and the fact that their vote had "lost" has stirred up uncomfortable feelings that, as a sword, he hasn't the slightest idea how to begin processing.
He doesn't mean to seek out Dazai, exactly, but he doesn't look surprised to come across him--just tired, mostly.]
Dazai-kun. [A small nod, in greeting.
...Then, because there's no point in beating around the bush:] ...what now?
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...I've only ever been at war. [There's something awkward about his tone--like he knows he should feel embarrassed or remorseful, but he doesn't quite know why.] In the past I fought humans, and in the-- present? [WHAT YEAR IS IT HERE] --I fight monsters, so...
[So all this death may be in a weird format, but. It isn't just his identity as a sword spirit that's got him more-or-less adjusted already.]
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There was a war in my lifetime, but I was excused from the draft because I was too sick. [He was never as bad as Oda, but he couldn't be called healthy.] Fighting monsters is easy - they're destroying something precious to me and I have to stop them. I don't question right and wrong there.
[Humans who have lives and dreams of their own are nothing like the Taints.]
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Yasusada's gaze drifts off to the side, contemplative and quiet.]
The things they're destroying... are they doing that because they believe they're right?
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[Dazai doesn't know enough about Taints to be certain if they're intelligent or not, but they seem to do nothing but destroy.]
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The monsters we fight... are trying to change history. [He speaks slowly, struggling to figure out the best way to explain.] They go back into the past to try and alter major events, to try and prevent the tragedy that caused the world to be how it is in my current time. It's my master's duty--well, our duty, I suppose--to stop them, and preserve history as it's supposed to be.
...Even if it means we have to make sure our former masters get hurt, or die.
[He falls quiet for a moment, eyes dropping down to the sword at his hip. It takes a deep, shuddering breath to keep himself from getting lost in his thoughts.]
The Revisionists... are swords like us, but ones that have been corrupted by their attempts to alter history. So they've become monsters, but... they still have a purpose. Something to fight for. It was like that when I was spirit serving Okita-kun, too. The humans we fought against... they all had their own reasons for fighting.
[Yasusada does not use the word "enemy". He's aggressive, violent, and perfectly willing to scream things like lose your head and die! or I'll kill you!, but he only ever refers to those he fights against as "opponents".
"Good" and "evil", "right" and "wrong"... they're human constructs, and subjective ones at that. Yasusada's never cared much to think about them--all that matters to him is serving his master to the best of his ability. That isn't a way of thinking he can change so easily, even in a place like this.]
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But I can't forgive some things. Whether their actions are 'right' or 'wrong' doesn't always factor into that. I have reasons, but I'm not always 'right'.
[Dazai'd proven that the first week when he'd refused to vote for Sharpay despite knowing that she was guilty and would be executed no matter what. There are things he values more than being a good person.]
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So... you can't forgive someone for killing another human? No matter what?
tw: suicidal implications
[It's different than murder.]
But, just for example... I couldn't forgive someone who killed my friend, even if they had a good reason for it. Like Sharpay's execution - I know she murdered someone, but I can't forgive the Tiger and the Dragon for killing her that way.