memory bank

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– Awakening
– First meetings
– Comrades
– Home
– Mumyouken
– Failure
– Weakness
– Goodbye
– Summoning
– Reunions
– Toba
– KBC
– Loved
– Influence
– Hard work
– Companionable enemies
– Leadership
– Journeys
– Ikigai; reason for living
– Déjà vu
– Goodbye Redux

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ii - first meetings

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Headcanon

[Yamato is given to Souji and taken to the Shinsengumi headquarters for the first time.]

ii (hc)

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Someone is holding him.

It's not the first time. He's been passed through other hands, tested, given hope. Been found lacking. Put back. Left behind.

But he's never been held like this.

Gentle hands, a firm grip that isn't uncomfortably tight. He feels his body swing through the air, deadly precision and strength flowing through to him. No one has ever guided him like this before. It's thrilling and terrifying all at once.

He hears a pleasant laugh, soft around the edges.

"Well, you're awfully hard to handle, aren't you?"

Someone is speaking to him. He wants to respond, to look behind him, to see their face-- but he can't. No matter which way he turns, all he sees is a flash of blue and white. The sky, maybe.

He wants so badly to see the sky. Now, tomorrow-- anything to get out. To stay by this person's side. He can't take being left behind. Not again. Not by someone with hands like this.

Voices, tension, a pounding heart. He's hard to handle. But this person can. But maybe they don't want to. But then... who would? If someone like this can't handle him, is there anyone that can?

And then--

"Come. Let's go home."

Fear. Hope. Elation.

Home.

What's a home?

He can't wait to find out.

((Important points: a sense of belonging, only valuing himself through the opinions of others, beginning development of unhealthy attachment))