[ He scratches his cheek. Yamato getting attached and overflowing with unconditional love like that really isn't surprising. A tiny part of Yato is jealous... ]
[He still looks pretty embarrassed, but at least he's smiling now, albeit sheepishly.]
Well... that's a sword's purpose, isn't it? I can't imagine anybody not feeling like that about their master.
[Which he's only able to say because he isn't thinking about how Baren is technically his master now, but when he remembers he will regret everything he just said.
For now, though--] I'm pretty sure that person chose Kiyomitsu, too. I remember talking to him about it. [His smile fades.] After that person died, I think.
[Yasusada wouldn't even blame him for it... but look, if Yasusada stuck around to support Yato through his bad decisions like murder, then Yato's gotta stick around for yams' shitty choices too. FRIENDSHIP.]
Yes.
[It's an immediate answer, falling from his lips with such ease that even Yasusada looks briefly surprised at himself. He doesn't take it back, though his brow does furrow a little.]
I don't... really remember being used-- not by him, I mean. [Aside from getting taken home, the only other memory of that period he has is sad and lonely.] After I got my body, the only one who used me was me, but... I definitely felt way more comfortable when I was fighting. I'm-- I get the feeling I didn't really like having a body, at first. It was too confusing when I just wanted to fight.
[Which sounds so typically Yasusada that it's almost funny, but there's no humor in his voice. His memories of being summoned, of gaining a body for the very first time and learning so much so quickly, are vastly overshadowed by his feelings at being reunited with Kashuu. Still, the way he'd felt when fighting in his memories had been so different from what he feels in this life--"intense" doesn't even begin to describe it.]
[It's really not funny, but the sound of Yato's laughter makes Yasusada smile anyway, simply because he knows it isn't malicious or mocking. It fades as he considers the question, leaning forward with a slight wince to put the remains of his food on the table.]
Well, I didn't ask... [Something that, he feels, is important to specify. But he knows his boyfriend well enough that he hadn't really needed to ask, especially given the nature of some of his stronger memories.]
...but, I don't know, I doubt it. He probably did a little bit, but he's never really been like me, I think that was probably true even when we were swords. [The smile is back, warmer this time, a little impish.] He even had painted nails back then!
[ Yato's laugh was genuine before, but now when he laughs again, it's definitely at Kashuu's expense. ]
Seriously?? That guy's unbelievable.
[ Yato's pretty much done with his food because his stomach no longer has a bottom and he isn't limited by petty things like body volume, so he crumples up the foil and tosses it onto the table. ]
[Making fun of Kashuu is clearly the best hobby anyone could have]
He sure looked like it. He was wearing heels and everything. [KASHUU WHY.] Oh, except when we went to the beach for the first time. But then he said something stupid like "a sunburn is your skin's enemy" and had on arm covers...
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[ He scratches his cheek. Yamato getting attached and overflowing with unconditional love like that really isn't surprising. A tiny part of Yato is jealous... ]
The guy who chose you was lucky to have you.
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Well... that's a sword's purpose, isn't it? I can't imagine anybody not feeling like that about their master.
[Which he's only able to say because he isn't thinking about how Baren is technically his master now, but when he remembers he will regret everything he just said.
For now, though--] I'm pretty sure that person chose Kiyomitsu, too. I remember talking to him about it. [His smile fades.] After that person died, I think.
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Outliving your masters seems like it'd be a real issue...
[ Thinking about all the swords that lie around for years and years in disuse is kind of depressing. Unless they're happy with just having a home? ]
Were you happier when you were being used to fight people?
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Yes.
[It's an immediate answer, falling from his lips with such ease that even Yasusada looks briefly surprised at himself. He doesn't take it back, though his brow does furrow a little.]
I don't... really remember being used-- not by him, I mean. [Aside from getting taken home, the only other memory of that period he has is sad and lonely.] After I got my body, the only one who used me was me, but... I definitely felt way more comfortable when I was fighting. I'm-- I get the feeling I didn't really like having a body, at first. It was too confusing when I just wanted to fight.
[Which sounds so typically Yasusada that it's almost funny, but there's no humor in his voice. His memories of being summoned, of gaining a body for the very first time and learning so much so quickly, are vastly overshadowed by his feelings at being reunited with Kashuu. Still, the way he'd felt when fighting in his memories had been so different from what he feels in this life--"intense" doesn't even begin to describe it.]
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There's no humor in Yamato's voice, but Yato laughs anyway... ]
That's so you. What about Kashuu? Did he feel the same way?
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Well, I didn't ask... [Something that, he feels, is important to specify. But he knows his boyfriend well enough that he hadn't really needed to ask, especially given the nature of some of his stronger memories.]
...but, I don't know, I doubt it. He probably did a little bit, but he's never really been like me, I think that was probably true even when we were swords. [The smile is back, warmer this time, a little impish.] He even had painted nails back then!
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Seriously?? That guy's unbelievable.
[ Yato's pretty much done with his food because his stomach no longer has a bottom and he isn't limited by petty things like body volume, so he crumples up the foil and tosses it onto the table. ]
Was he into fashion too?
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He sure looked like it. He was wearing heels and everything. [KASHUU WHY.] Oh, except when we went to the beach for the first time. But then he said something stupid like "a sunburn is your skin's enemy" and had on arm covers...