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Yasusada

I'd rather be doing kendo

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I meant that something was wrong

[Not exactly what had happened... but even then, he does know that Baren's right about even this. It's not as difficult for him to admit that as it might've been a week or two ago, and this isn't a test so much as Yamato giving in to that selfishness he'd set aside earlier, for Kashuu's sake--that part of him that never knows when to stop pushing, too caught up in his own desire to talk about the most painful things.]

but
thank you
for whatever you did to help him calm down after that
if it had been me... I don't think I could've helped

[And that... that's a lot, coming from him to Baren. Yamato's always had a weirdly distant view of his and Kashuu's relationship, but he's always been able to say with confidence that he knows Kashuu very well--and that includes knowing how to take care of him. To outright admit that Baren was better suited for this than he would've been... it's obvious that whatever's transpired since Baren left the apartment was incredibly heavy, if nothing else.]

still no

[Because Baren isn't the type to share anything with anyone - not even the people that a person might trust most. He doesn't ever want to be the one to reveal bad news that isn't his to share. So he... just doesn't.]

anyway
i hear that sometimes people can't see relationships that are too close to them
too clearly

[which is his way of saying that he disagrees - roundabout as it is. he won't accept the thanks, because he doesn't think he did anything worth thanking. he was just a decent human being for once and.... he still thinks he was the wrong person for it.

but if it's all that kashuu had in terms of options, what could he do besides his best?]

whatever

[VERY MATURE... but Yamato can only argue so much when he kinda-sorta agrees. Ugh.

Still, none of that is important right now. Yamato can be as petty as the best of them, but he knows what's most important right now, and it isn't bickering over what's already passed.]

I don't really get what you're trying to say [at least he's honest] but it means a lot
to both of us
I won't say it again so don't get used to it though

[Y'know, just in case Baren was starting think Yamato liked him or anything... even though he's mellowed out a lot since their fight, save them.]

he's feeling a little better now
in case you were wondering
I'm not sure when he'll be back up to 100% though